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“Caused Me to Remember”

This video…Caused me to remember…

Caused me to remember 2010…caused me to remember the feelings that completely changed the way I view the world…

You see in April of 2010 I was diagnosed with Non-Hodgkin’s Lymphoma…yep, cancer…it will rock you world!

Many times, after a doctor’s appointment, I would have to run an errand…and many times, I found myself being crabby, and emotional with the people I came into contact…including bursting into tears for no apparent reason…My shirt didn’t read “BACK OFF! I have cancer, and I’ve just come from a stressful appointment.” They had no idea what my problem was, and it wasn’t their job to know…

It wasn’t their job to know; that kid gloves were needed with talking with me…

It wasn’t their job to know; that in days my hair is going to start falling out and I was terrified…

It wasn’t their job to know; that I just found out my blood counts were wonky and I needed a transfusion…

It wasn’t their job to know; that it took ALL my strength to walk from the car to the door and am now I’m so exhausted I can’t imagine walking the isles to get what I needed…

It wasn’t their job to know; that my world was crumbling around me and that I was crumbling with it…

This experience of cancer…This experience of chemotherapy…This experience of radiation…and, now this experience of living in remission, provided me with a new world view…

I am now, much more patient with crabby people in stores because I don’t know their story…I don’t know the battles they are fighting…and I can’t be sure that their world isn’t crumbling around them…and if I can’t be sure…I’ve got no right to judge…

Carelessly,

April

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