cancer

With Thanksgiving…

This year,I think,I am really only allowed,to be thankful for one thing…because this is who I now am…forever changed…emotionally…physically…mentally…andspiritually…better than I was before…emotionally…physically…mentally…andspiritually…Happy Thanksgiving! Robin said…Happy Thanksgiving to you and your family!

Thoughts on Remission…

Told to the nurse taking my blood: I’m in remission To my new co-workers: I’m in remission Announced, by the pastor, to the church: She is in remission To my Sunday School class: I’m in remission In an e-mail to my aunt: I’m in remission In a card to my uncle: I’m in remission To myself, over, and over, and over, again: I’m in remission…I’m in remission…I AM in remission…I am IN remission…I am in REMISSION…remission…remission…remission…remission… No matter how many ways I try it on…the phrase ’I am in remission’ fits like a pair of gloves that doesn’t keep out the cold…you wear them because they are cute…you wear them because you are in a hurry and they are the first pair you see…they are not the gloves you go to when it is –10 degrees, and the ice is 1/4 of an inch deep on your windshield…they are not the gloves you wear when you shovel the front walk, or use to keep your hands dry when wiping the snow off your car (because your trunk is frozen shut and you can’t get to the snow removal brush…) remission sounds great…it is pink and versatile (converting from finger gloves to …Read more

What’s that you Say?

“I have nothing but good things to report” ~Dr. M today I am OFFICIALLY in…REMISSIONnow, what does that mean?good question…it means that there is no sign of cancer anywhere…the PET scan was clean…Dr. M said that the masses have shrank so completely that there is not even residual scar tissue…it means my hair will get a chance to grow back…it means that for the next two to three years I will be scanned, every three months, to make sure there is not a reoccurrence…then we will move to once every six months until the five year mark…at five years I can proclaim that I am CURED…I am sure after that there is a yearly check-up for the rest of my life…these scans will settle my heart I am sure…it means, never again will my face look like this… it means that lymphoma will never again get a chance to grow un-yielded, because WE ARE WATCHING…*Next week, I have an appointment with the radiologist…She wants to see and treat me on the same day…so next week should start my month of radiation treatments…Dr. M hinted that he thought I may not need radiation butalas it looks as though I will…what does that mean?it means …Read more

This Week…

most of what I have been doing is this… SLEEPING LIKE A BABY! Seriously, I’m not even trying…I went to bed around 12 last night and didn’t wake up until 4:30 this afternoon…I’m not even sure I got up to go to the bathroom in that time…and I used to always get up to use the bathroom when I sleep… The biggest things I’ve accomplished is changing my sheets, washing all my clothes (just one load) and doing the dishes a couple of times…I am certainly not trying to win any awards this week am I? Tomorrow is my appointment to discuss the PET scan results…