Thanks, Thanks, Thanks be to God…

I choose to be Thankful for;#1. The ability to go to radiation…I may not like it, and I may not want to go, but I am blessed to have insurance (through the state) and have the ability to go…#2. The ability to get prescriptions when needed…I was given two prescriptions today, they were unexpected and one was not covered by Medicaid…it ended up only being 11 dollars instead of the normal 3 dollars which I know is WAY less than some people have to pay for their monthly prescriptions…so while I am not happy about having to get those prescriptions today…I am thankful that I had the money in my bank account to pay for them, and I am thankful for the help they will bring…Dr. R has decided to suspend my radiation treatments until at least Monday, because the pain I have swallowing is getting progressively worse…I just want to cry sometimes when I eat…pain is emotionally draining…She gave me a liquid pain medication, and a new mouth rinse/gargle to try and help numb it before eating (I am not sure it is going to work though, when I used it my tongue and lips were numb but not the base of my throat…)She said that the tissue in our esophagus’s heal quickly, and if they just kept on with the treatment without a break, the pain would just get worse and worse so we need to stop for a while…I am kind of disappointed because this may mean that I am not done with treatments before the new year, and I was SO looking forward to starting 2011 treatment free…