Have I Showed…

you my head lately? When I got my chemo on Monday it had been a little over a month since my last treatment…I asked the nurse if I would lose my hair again, and she said probably…in a week or two what little hair I have will start to fall out again…I have thought about just going ahead and shaving my head…but I think I will wait to see IF it does fall out…because if it doesn’t, I don’t want to lose the hair that has already grown back…These pictures are less than stellar (they are from my webcam)…and I apologize for that…Here is the top of my head… a few weeks ago it felt SUPER soft like a baby chick…now it feels like what I think an ostrich’s hair would feel like…and I don’t know why…I’ve never played with an ostrich’s hair before…it is a bit addicting to rub…Here is my showing you the side of my head… it is hard to figure out where to look when taking your picture with a webcam so my eyes look funny in this picture…This is my smiling at the last picture… AND…showing off my scars…I don’t know if I have ever showed you the lovely scars (YES PLURAL) from my port surgery…the doctor first tired to put it in the shorter scar but decided it was not going to work…so he had to make another incision to place the port at its current location…I’m not so okay with one scar much less two…and that the first one was for nothing is a bit frustrating…it shows on a lot of my shirts…but there is nothing I can do to change that…I have barley made it out of bed this week…I’ve either been in bed…sleeping, or watching shows on the internet (GOD bless the internet for that fact alone…I was able to find all the back seasons of Friday Night Lights for free on-line and was SO excited!)…or in the living room laying/sitting on the couch…Every time I think I have found the depths of exhaustion I find another level deeper…I took a shower today and could barely breath when I was done…I’m SUPER achy and my chest is heavy when I try to do too much…like go to the kitchen for a cup of water, or put a load of clothes in the washer…which shouldn’t be hard because it is in the NEXT room over from mine…I am not going to attempt to move the clothes to the dryer…good thing I’ve got mom for that…I just ate a snickers and it tasted different…NOT as satisfying…DARN chemo, HOW DARE it take the great taste of chocolate from me!That is all for now…

Anonymous said…i do NOT validate cancer making a snickers taste bad. That is simply of the devil! Rebuke!!Jeri Ann