Gifts…

Today I saw my oncologist so I took in the presents I had assembled…because of some great Hallmark coupons a few weeks ago I was able to get four bird ornaments…I gave them to the nursing staff, the front desk, the doctor, and the radiology staff…I also gave each section a bag of choc-O-late! and each individual person received a card
I included in the card a copy of this note I wrote last night…

This year…

has been difficult…

it has been stressful…

it has been life-changing..

it has been informative…

and it has been lonely…

people can want to help…they can give you money…they can send you a card…but unless they have EXPERIENCED cancer themselves (and I don’t mean through a family member)…they do not have the capacity to understand how hard it is…they can’t understand what it does to you physically and mentally…

you at the Cancer Center are the only ones who I felt really understood this roller-coaster ride I was on…I didn’t pay admission for the cancer amusement park, I didn’t want the tee-shirt from the gift shop, and I sure didn’t want to ride the rides…but I found myself there and found you to help me navigate…

thank you…

for making me feel safe…

for being available for ALL of my questions…

for understanding when I cried…

and for tolerating me when I was angry…

as of today I am in remission…I don’t know what the future will bring…in 5 years I may be considered cured…or in six months I could have a relapse…either way I now know that I am capable to make it through anything…no matter how uncertain…

everyone seemed to love everything so they were a success! I just love giving gifts…and I love it even better when I am able to do it inexpensively thanks to coupons and deals I find…

I am SO tired and ready for bed!

Tomorrow morning I have an appointment with the ENT to see if he can figure out what is going on with my ears…I would love to find a solution to the sensitivity issue going on…my ears hurt when they shouldn’t…

Good night all, I don’t feel like going back and proofreading so please forgive any mistakes or incoherent thoughts…thank you!