1st Day of Radiation

This afternoon at 3:00 I have my first radiation treatment…this first treatment will be the longest because I never went back in and got the tattoos so they will have to spend some time finding the exact right spot to aim the radiation…I think as long as I go into it knowing it is going to be a longer process (at least 30 min or more) then I will better be able to get through it…but I will always hate having to be bare chested laying on a hard table with my hands above my head while people line me up like a deer in a scope to be poisoned…I am praying that the next 17 treatments go smoothly and that my skin does not get too red, I do not want to have to stop treatment in the middle because my skin is getting too sensitive…I want this all to be OVER before the new year…I want to go into 2011 completely in remission with no more treatments scheduled…I want my hemolysis stuff to be resolved and I want to not have the hospital be a regular (you know WEEKLY) stop on the route that has become my life…these are the desires of my heart…

Mama4Real said…Praying you get your Christmas wish!!!