Little Bit 1999-2011

Today is the 2nd anniversary of my Little Bit leaving us…

I thought I would re-post what I wrote on that day…

My love for her hasn’t weakened, and there are still days when I think she is going to be at the door to greet me, or that I can leave that crumb on the floor because she will come eat it up…and then I get sad, and I miss her all over again…and that is OK because even in the missing of her there is some joy…

Yesterday was the day…

My brother and mom took her to the vet, and let her go…I made the choice that it was time and called the vet to schedule, I knew she needed to go but I did not need to watch it happen…

I already miss her…

I miss her not watching me eat and begging for a bite…

I miss taking care of her…

I miss snuggling her…

I miss everything about her…

Yesterday I was sleeping when mom came into my room to get her…I was not going to get up but decided I needed to say goodbye…

When I got up I asked mom where the dog was and she said that Little Bit kept trying to get back into my room…I picked her up and she let me cuddle her for about ten minutes before mom and Christopher had to take her…

This is amazing because Little Bit WOULD NOT let me snuggle with her the night before…the tumor on her tummy was big and I think when I would try to hold her she was uncomfortable and always wanted down…

I think yesterday morning she knew what was going to happen…because she melted into my chest looked into my eyes and let me hold and pet and kiss and snuggle with her…

Carelessly,

April