Change in Plans…

Two weeks ago today’s plans included spending the week in Nashville training for a new job…Actual activities for the day included…cleaning the remotes and keyboards in the house, cleaning the kitchen, vacuuming the house, and looking for a job…See how that last task just slipped in all quiet and unassuming?

An explanation is necessary…

The job fell through…having a speeding ticket and two seat-belt violations in the last three years (one having occurred in each year from 2011-2013)…seems to be one too many ‘violations’ for their policies…who knew that seat-belt violations were of any consequence to getting a job…last week Google was searched for possible solutions and I was “found wanting”… There are no classes or action that can be taken to reverse these ‘violations’…An appointment has been set up for this coming Thursday with a lawyer to exhaust all avenues of ‘fixing’ my record because I was informed that if I find anything I can do regarding these violations to call them…they expect to continue to expand services in this area…and I really think they wanted to hire me…if anything it feels good that they did all they could from their end to make this happen…

As a side-note: may I just add that if the social work profession is going to require 2000 or more miles a month driving that they should loosen up their policies regarding driving incidents!

Embarrassed has been the emotion most prevalent…Shame maybe second, and disappointment third…I was never EXCITED to start this job, it was basically an extension of what I had been doing and I wasn’t sure I wanted to continue doing that kind of work…

Not being one that attributes all happenings in my life to ‘God’s will’ I don’t read into this the ‘maybe He has a different plan for my life’ sentiment…What I do ascribe to, however, is the peace in my heart…

“Meanwhile, the moment we get tired in the waiting, God’s Spirit is right alongside helping us along. If we don’t know how or what to pray, it doesn’t matter. He does our praying in and for us, making prayer out of our wordless sighs, our aching groans. He knows us far better than we know ourselves, knows our pregnant condition, and keeps us present before God. That’s why we can be so sure that every detail in our lives of love for God is worked into something good. Romans 8:26-28 (MSG)

and it is that peace that shields me from fear and anxiety…which is what this blog is all about…being careless in the care of God…

“If you decide for God, living a life of God-worship, it follows that you don’t fuss about what’s on the table at mealtimes or whether the clothes in your closet are in fashion. There is far more to your life than the food you put in your stomach, more to your outer appearance than the clothes you hang on your body. Look at the birds, free and unfettered, not tied down to a job description, careless in the care of God. And you count far more to him than birds.”Matthew 6:25-26 (MSG)

Carelessly,

April