My Hair…

My hair has started coming out…if I scratch my head or run my hand through my hair a measurable amount of hair comes out as a result…You can think you are somewhat prepared for when it is going to happen…but there is simply NO way to be prepared…this sucks! Robin said…Hugs…. Hang in there. 4smartmonkeys said…Hugs sweetie! Anonymous said…So sorry you are going thru all this. Just remember you are one tough cookie and your awesome hats are on their way! thinking about you.. Mel Anonymous said…Man, that does suck! I can’t imagine. I just met a woman, though, that said it was really hard at first, but later she just rocked the baldness. She reminded me of you in personality. It’s obviously TOTALLY okay that it’s hard, but I can imagine you rocking it eventually, with hats, scarves, or au naturale. Jana SusanD said…Hey April, Sorry I haven’t commented sooner. I’ve been so busy getting all my graduation requirements turned in. Yes, loosing your hair sucks. No doubt. But it’s just hair. It does grow back. Even though I couldn’t control the hair loss, I could control HOW I lost it. I had a head shavin party. I invited my close friends …Read more

Generosity Abounds

Today was an amazing mail day! I received two packages.First…Thoughtful, with all kinds of birdy goodies and even Dr. Pepper lip balm (this person did their research)…also a great encouraging note…Second…a HUGE box of cards, and thoughtful gifts from my friends on Swap-Bot…you should seriously check the site out…it has been a blast swapping crafts, letters, and life with others…I’ve cut way back on my swapping for this time in my life…but Swap-Bot has not cut back on me… Blair one of my new friends organized this love fest…she had all these people mail good wishes to me…There are over 20 people represented in these two photos…and she said that she has another box…I got books (good to read during chemo I’m sure), beautiful handmade gifts, stationary, crafting supplies, reusable bags, notepads, and encouraging notes, ect…The support of these amazing thoughtful women is BEYOND my comprehension…I am convinced that the love, prayers, and well wishes of my friends (new and old) and family (biological and church) is the reason, I am able to stand without falling…As if this isn’t enough…Blair (yes the same one from above) and another new friend Robin have offered to do something pretty darn amazing…Blair is making …Read more

Cause or Effect…

Liecause: if I order hats and make scarveseffect: I will lose my hairLate last night, in preparation of my impending hair loss, I spent a couple of hours hemming and hawing over which hats to order…I thought I had my choices made…I was waiting to show mom tonight and then click to send the order off…I mean I have to allow for shipping time right? I will feel better having at least one well fitting hat in my possession by the end of next week…that is when the hair loss COULD start…I HATE not knowing when it will start.This morning, I became paralyzed…that amount was TOO much for hats…I thought…I don’t need five I just need those three…yep, those three will be good…WAIT! are those the right colors? is that the right hat? what if we get it and they don’t look right? I wish there was a cancer hat store in the area…maybe there is…I should wait to order until I find out…You need to take a deep breath after reading that rambling right? I know I do…maybe I was thinking…IFI DON’T ORDER A HATTHENI WON’T LOSE MY HAIRyep, I’ve decided that is what I was thinkingmakes sense right?I think so…Truthcause: My hair WILL …Read more

Sufficient Grace

This is a bit of a disjointed post and maybe that reflects my state of mind…I don’t know…what I do know is that I will continue to be transparent…journey with me or not, know that I like living an open life and those who know me know my heart and that is safety enough for me… Because of the extravagance of those revelations, and so I wouldn’t get a big head, I was given the gift of a handicap to keep me in constant touch with my limitations. Satan’s angel did his best to get me down; what he in fact did was push me to my knees. No danger then of walking around high and mighty! At first I didn’t think of it as a gift, and begged God to remove it. Three times I did that, and then he told me, My grace is enough;it’s all you need.My strengthcomes into its ownin your weakness. Once I heard that, I was glad to let it happen. I quit focusing on the handicap and began appreciating the gift. It was a case of Christ’s strength moving in on my weakness. Now I take limitations in stride, and with good cheer, …Read more